Ahhh how do I start?
2015 is a REALLY tough year for me. I would say it’s the toughest one yet.
On happier things first. I’m glad my family members are healthy. Now dad, if only you can quit smoking!!! Really man. It breaks my heart to see you gambling your life away. I also appreciated the time we spent on our triple family vacations, although on some days things may not be rosy. Weekly grocery shopping is now my thing as I cook more at home. Because of that, I’m more price and quality conscious. Mostly I cook healthy dishes and make salad and juice. Oh yeah! On exercise… well, I think I’m less lazy compare to last year but still have a loooooong way to go.
Now the unlucky stuffs…
Bad things started to happen from mid year and lasted until year end. First, I found myself in the hospital. I’m so glad I have the support of my family during this difficult period. Then I got back to work and found out about the non-existent hospitalization leave. Wow.
I also realized my negative thinking is worse than last year. I tried to be positive but you know what? Minds can wander without you realizing it. Subconsciousness!!!
In October the love of my life, my furry super kwai golden retriever, Chester passed away. 😥 Part of me think I killed my dog because of karma and my negative thinking. And yet part of me think it’s his time to leave me. Lots of regrets on what I should have done on that fateful day. I know I can’t change the past. I’ll take this experience as Chester’s last lesson to me. Miss him terribly. 💓
Few weeks later I received more bad news. I thought that’s the end of my bad luck. But nope. I succumbed into deep webs of unhappiness-stress-depression-etc. Thankfully I’m slowly bouncing back. ✌️
I need to taste the sweetness of life again.
I want to taste the sweetness of life again and keep it that way forever. *thanks Oh My Venus
I believe all this trials will only make me stronger.
So come on 2016. I’m ready for you!
p/s: Happiness starts with me. Remember that, Amy.