13 Years Old & One Year Anniversary

Happy Birthday, eongdong-i 내사랑 엉덩이! 💗
Chester would have been 13 years old today.

And the hardest part is… remembering the day he parted with us a day later… a year ago.

I miss you tremendously. And I will most probably be doing so until the end of time.

The song below is titled 그리워 그리워서 (geuriwo geuriwoseo) Because I Miss You. It’s one of my favorite OSTs from Moonlight Drawn By Clouds (current hit Korean drama which also happens to be my fav). The mood and the lyrics: 그리워 그리워서 & 사랑해 사랑해서 fit perfectly to how I feel; I Miss You, I Miss You So Much and I Love You, I Love You So Much.

The moment I stopped blaming myself on Chester’s passing was when I dreamed about him few months later.

In the dream, I was given a second chance to save him. I did it differently this time BUT the result were still the same. He left. That’s when I realized it was his time to go. 😭😭😭 And I shouldn’t blame myself anymore.

Now, Chester is my motivator. To do better in life. To be happy. To be positive. To be carefree. To be brave. And most important of all: to do things that I would not regret later in life. 💪

Here’s something I wrote a while back… on nights when I stared into darkness. To those who ever have the privilege to be in a dog-human relationship, you’ll understand this.

Have a dog, they said
It’ll be joyful, they said
What they said are really true

But what no one tells me are:
That I’ll be his slave and best friend throughout his lifetime
That I’ll be the person he trust and relies on throughout his lifetime
That he’ll love me unconditionally throughout his lifetime *I WOOF YOU!*
And that I’ll love him unconditionally throughout my lifetime *I LOVE YOU TOO*

p/s: A year ago, I mentioned that I will blog about the rage & lesson parts. I’ve decided not to write it but I gave a hint in the post. Click the link if you’re interested (first paragraph).