How’s my 2017?
I think it was a neutral year for me. Lots of ups, and also lots of downs. And this is what life is all about. 😏 All the hardships and fun days are priceless lessons, especially failures. This year, I spent a large bulk of my time learning who I really am, and why I am the way I am.
When I was editing my old blog posts (due to Photobucket and also changing this blog to a secured site), I found that I talked bad and curse a lot of things in life. I was full of complain and negativity. I won’t delete those posts, instead it will be set as reminders of who I was and how I improve from here on. I would like to apologize to everyone and everything. I’m so sorry for what I did or said to all of you. Now, allow me to love all of you! ❤️
During these journeys of self-discovery, I stumbled upon the study of energy/vibration and the relationship it has with our mind/thoughts (ego), our food, the world we live in and universe. All these changes the way I see things. The power of our mind is really a scary and yet beautiful thing. My practice on mindfulness is still on-going. Most of the time it was a lost battle, but then now I can sometimes catch the moment when my mind starts wandering into doing mode instead of being mode.
With regards to food, I know cooking my own food is the best gift I can give myself, so I continue doing that. While learning about what’s good and what’s bad to put in the body, I got into a conflicting guilty-not guilty loop. It was a bitter push and pull within my own conscience. Only recently did I found my balance. Seriously, if you would just be awaken for a moment and see things clearly, you’ll realize how screwed up our modern diets are. Don’t satiate your tongue or the outlook, go for what the body really needs. I also believe if one really need to indulge, then just go indulge it without feeling guilty, but give it a limit and allow your body to heal after that.
I continue doing yoga 💕 and other exercises. I’m so much more flexible now, which I didn’t think I would ever be! The feeling after completing yoga or any other form of exercise is pure bliss. The peace within you… WOW! And recently, I include meditation right after yoga. I’m still very green at it. A few times now, while doing meditation I would doze off. LOL
My love for gardening is deeper than ever. I seriously wish that I have a big land to plant whatever I want and to have some chickens, cows, pigs, sheep, etc (of course dogs too) running around. Haha. I love getting my sun fix, dirtying my hands, talking with my plants and showering ’em with love. Don’t laugh. They understand because everything is energy. Just like exercising, gardening is wonderful for the soul. It’ll also help keep you grounded. Release away all those negative energy fields!
I started a new journey this year, a dream that I finally put into action. I’m taking very small baby steps everyday, and I hope it will flourish into what I projected it to be. I continue providing food whenever I can to my furry friends from behind my house. There are more cats than dogs now. Sometimes I don’t see any dogs at all. Can I ever say no to Korean dramas? Nope! Still addicted to it.
If you follow me in Twitter, you may have read about me saying I kept seeing 1:11 or 11:11. I even saw 111 likes and 1111 likes on the same day in Instagram! LOL For a long time, I did not know what it means. Then I found out it has a relationship with Chester. And just recently, after going into these self-discovery voyages, I finally understood its meaning. It means that I’m on the path of awakening. What I wrote earlier about energy, eating right, mindfulness, meditation and also positive/negative thinking, fear… all these are the journeys itself.
I’ve always know I’m the wild one. I don’t follow the standard course of life.
Hence, let it be wild, happy and worthwhile!!! 🤘🙃
할 수있다 baby! – it means I can do it
p/s: I realized I’ve babbled too much up there.