My 2021 was going by slowly at first but by the second half, it zoomed past in the blink of an eye. What?
2021 saw the continuation of the GREAT FEAR of 2020. Let’s just say that I sometimes feel like shaking one’s shoulders back and forth, back and forth while shouting “WAKE UP! WAKE UP!”. Not anymore though for I learned that it’s not my job to wake others up. It’s an inside job. I’m very glad to be living in this time and witness the greatest waking up of the human race yet. To wake up is not simply by the snap of the fingers, but it takes many dark nights and the peeling off of the many layers (programmings) that we took on through our lives.
I continue to be intrigued by the world of GNM. Listened to many GNM podcasts humbly shared by Dr Alvin De Leon and read the many wisdom posts shared by the ever beautiful Dr Melissa Sell. Reasons why you have the flu, a rash, pain in the right back and so on and so forth can be found in GNM. With GNM, I’m more aware of myself. If I’m going through a conflict/trauma, I will try my best to resolve it quickly. Although I meditated (crossed-legged with hand mudra pose) almost zilch this year, I guess you could say that GNM is my meditation. I’m present because of it.
I let go of two big things this year. One, for not RE-taking part in something hence I let go of that road which I loved and forged a new path. Two, finally letting go of a toxic being as I no longer operate in/hold on to fear. It’s no longer working on me. I found freedom! I’m still doing boundary work and always will be for it opens up a whole new OLD world for me. I do deep breathing whenever I realized I’ve been tensing up my body and/or breathing very shallow OR when I’m doing big business as I have nothing else to do. Hahaha
Along with the letting go, surrendering, being thankful and loving myself, I also got stronger, both in mind and body. Ohh I’m still busy manifesting! Other than that, things are pretty the same here. I still cook (my fermenting game is really strong this year), bake, garden and watch Korean dramas (Hello? It’s Me! & Imitation are my favorites). There hasn’t been any travelling for the past two years and practically no exercising (does mopping the floor and carrying pots count?). 😛
To be able to make peace and move on from my traumas are my biggest achievements this year. I’d made immense spiritual growth. A big part of it is all thanks to my manifestations or perhaps will. Here’s to more creating, loving and holding the light. Thank you so much 2021! 💫🌟