13 Years Old & One Year Anniversary

Happy Birthday, eongdong-i 내사랑 엉덩이! 💗
Chester would have been 13 years old today.


And the hardest part is… remembering the day he parted with us a day later… a year ago.

I miss you tremendously. And I will most probably be doing so until the end of time.

The song below is titled 그리워 그리워서 (geuriwo geuriwoseo) Because I Miss You. It’s one of my favorite OSTs from Moonlight Drawn By Clouds (current hit Korean drama which also happens to be my fav). The mood and the lyrics: 그리워 그리워서 & 사랑해 사랑해서 fit perfectly to how I feel; I Miss You, I Miss You So Much and I Love You, I Love You So Much.

The moment I stopped blaming myself on Chester’s passing was when I dreamed about him few months later.

In the dream, I was given a second chance to save him. I did it differently this time BUT the result were still the same. He left. That’s when I realized it was his time to go. 😭😭😭 And I shouldn’t blame myself anymore.

Now, Chester is my motivator. To do better in life. To be happy. To be positive. To be carefree. To be brave. And most important of all: to do things that I would not regret later in life. 💪

Here’s something I wrote a while back… on nights when I stared into darkness. To those who ever have the privilege to be in a dog-human relationship, you’ll understand this.

Have a dog, they said
It’ll be joyful, they said
What they said are really true

But what no one tells me are:
That I’ll be his slave and best friend throughout his lifetime
That I’ll be the person he trust and relies on throughout his lifetime
That he’ll love me unconditionally throughout his lifetime
And that I’ll love him unconditionally throughout my lifetime *I LOVE YOU TOO*

p/s: A year ago, I mentioned that I will blog about the rage & lesson parts. I’ve decided not to write it but I gave a hint in the post. Click the link if you’re interested (first paragraph).

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  • Reply tekkaus October 4, 2016 at 2:08 am

    I am sorry to know about his passing…more so because now only I realize. 🙁

    • Reply Che-Cheh October 4, 2016 at 7:43 pm

      Hi Tekkaus, Thanks and no worry. 🙂

  • Reply tekkaus October 4, 2016 at 2:08 am

    I am sure Chester is at a better place now and he definitely doesn’t want you to blame yourself.

    • Reply Che-Cheh October 4, 2016 at 7:46 pm

      Yes he is. Thanks for your support. 🙂

  • Reply Dawn October 4, 2016 at 9:08 pm

    Awww I know how you feel. I still think of Cooper and Ranger all the time especially now that I’m by myself. And of course I’m missing Chase too. How much they have changed my life. Dogs are God sent to us humans to teach us about what patience, persistence and unconditional love is….for us with no kids 🙂

    • Reply Che-Cheh October 4, 2016 at 11:13 pm

      Hi Dawn, let’s hug for 10 minutes!… for the love of our dogs. 🙂
      I think even if we have kids, these furry friends will still impact a large part of our life.

  • Reply Rae October 21, 2016 at 4:54 pm

    Cheer up, pretty sure Chester would not be happy to see you sad like this.
    I’ve been through his before, lost my precious few years ago. Even now I think of milo and miss him very much, sometimes talk to him in my head, asking him if everything is alright over there and if he’s having fun. I really hope he had a huge space to run around.
    I chose to open my heart again and we got a gorgeous golden last year and she’s the whole world to me. The dreadful day definitely will come one day but the years of amazing memories keep me stronger and I’m thankful that I’m able to have her and give the best for her.
    I hope you are able to open your heart again and give the dog that deserves your love 🙂

    • Reply Che-Cheh October 23, 2016 at 8:19 pm

      Hi Rae, thanks for you sharing your story with me. I really appreciate it. The thing I’m so afraid of is going through that dreadful day again. I’m glad you have open your heart again and I know I will too. 🙂 *hugs

  • Reply jam November 23, 2016 at 2:30 pm

    Sorry to hear this. It has been a long time since I dropped by here, and what a tragic news it is… Do take care.

    • Reply Che-Cheh December 8, 2016 at 8:13 pm

      Hi Jam, Sorry for the late reply. Thanks for dropping by even after so long. I’ve became stronger and I know there will be an angel dog watching over me always. 🙂

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