Chester Bennington Q 2003-2015

Chester Bennington Q
3rd October 2003 – 4th October 2015

It’s with heavy and broken heart to let you all know Chester, my best buddy had passed away sometime during the night on Sunday. He was 12 years and 1 day old.

I miss you even when you were by my side.

Now that you’re gone, I can’t stop missing you every seconds.

Whatever you were suffering, I’m glad you were free from it now.

I feel a big void in my heart. What will I do without you?


You’ll always be in my heart.

I’m sure you all want to know what happened to Chester.

The morning after his birthday, I was woken up by his two very loud coughs. He was standing in front of my bedroom and I saw a piece of stool on the floor. He then lied down and refused to get up when I call him to go for his morning potty.

I’m not sure if it’s before or after I gave him some water to drink, his lower abdomens (or stomach) began to expand and contract every few seconds and he was making painful sound. Since I gave him chicken breast the day before for his birthday, I thought maybe he suffered from bloating. So I let him rest until around 2pm+ when I see that his gum began to become pale. At this time the stomach expand and contract motion had reduced.

So I decided to bring him to vet but during this time all the clinics had closed. It was Sunday. At this point I was crying like a mad lady. I called up a vet and she suggested me to bring Chester to a pet hospital in PJ. We had to carry him to the car as he couldn’t/refused to get up. So off we went but the line to see the doctor were long. And I realized Chester’s gum was turning even more pale. So I told the vet and he examined him first due to emergency. All he did was asked several questions, check his gums, eyes and ass. When he found out it’s our first time there, he sort of didn’t like it. He suggested X-tray, blood test and ultrasound.

They put him in a cage and we waited. When I went to see Chester I saw that he had finally pooped. But no sign of urine. His stomach expand and contract is even lesser now but still pale gum.

Then they put an IV drip on him, took his blood and did X-ray on him. His white blood cells count were a bit high. According to a young vet (another doc which I thought were nurse), this means Chester is fighting an infection. And his HCT were a bit low. For the X-ray, the vet said maybe he got some pneumonia and there were gasses in his stomach. She’ll have to confirm with the first vet that saw Chester just now (but she never did).

Then they placed him in a cage and told me they will do the ultrasound later. The kidney and liver blood result will be known the next day. When I checked on Chester, his hands and legs were cold and his muzzle were cold too. His gum got even paler. But that was all the vet did on him. She said she will check for his fever and do ultrasound later. Chester didn’t bother with the food and water they gave him. He just lied on his side away from us looking towards the window. I left him there feeling so helpless. Is that all they can do for him? I sorta knew he might not make it because pale gum is serious business. But of course I hoped for the best. My crying didn’t stop until when I went to sleep.

Next morning (today Monday) at 9.27am, I got a call from the hospital telling me Chester had passed away. 🙁 🙁 🙁

I went to the hospital, got his liver and kidney blood result, some results were out of range but nothing serious. Then I went to see Chester… ohmygod… his body were hard and there were blood discharge from his nose. This means he had passed away for quite long. Most probably yesterday night. I said my goodbye. 🙁 I questioned the vet and she told me they didn’t do the ultrasound yesterday. Was planning to do it today. Then I asked her what did she do to treat Chester yesterday. She said IV and antibiotic. That’s all. I cried yesterday and today at the hospital and not even one staff console me. I felt like I made the wrong choice with this hospital and I brought him in too late. But all done is done.

I don’t know the reason of Chester death. I choose not to do post-mortem as I don’t want to cut him up. I arranged for his body to be cremated and the ash will be returned to us in few days time. His death will remain a question mark forever.

Now every where I look in the house, there is no Chester there. I wonder how long it will take for me to finally realize that Chester isn’t here anymore (physically). To have him with us for 12 years is a wonderful feat. Thank you Chester for choosing us to be your family. 🙂

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  • Reply xin October 5, 2015 at 8:44 pm

    this is all too sudden 🙁
    i would have made the same decision in your shoe, and not to pursue with the post mortem.
    may he RIP in dog heaven. goodbye chester 🙁

    • Reply Che-Cheh October 5, 2015 at 8:53 pm

      Hi Xin, thank you so much for sharing your thoughts. I’m sure he’s in good hands now… together with other doggies.

  • Reply Benny October 5, 2015 at 10:16 pm

    Will always miss Chester. <3

  • Reply Dawn October 6, 2015 at 1:59 am

    Amy…I am sorry about the lost of Chester and you not being there when he took his last breath!!! I am crying just reading your all your posts about him. It brings back the memories of Cooper and Ranger. However, I have to tell you Chester is definitely not suffering anymore. He is now pain free and running the vasts fields in doggie heaven.

    I have not been dropping by here due to me going thru a lot of changes in my life – moving, divorce, getting Chase to adapt to new environment…a lot has happened.

    I hope you find comfort with the happy memories of Chester during these tough days ahead. Not easy but time will heal. Take care, dear.

    • Reply Che-Cheh October 6, 2015 at 3:25 pm

      Hi Dawn, I sort of knew if he couldn’t make it that night my goodbye on that Sunday evening would be the last. I think Chester didn’t want me to be there to see him leave because he knew I wouldn’t stand the situation. I have no regrets on that. The only regret I had was I didn’t brought him to the vet way way earlier. 🙁
      I hope Chester finds Cooper and Ranger up there at the beautiful rainbow bridge and they will play and play because nobody are gonna stop them. They might also share stories and secrets about their masters/best friends/mom (us!!).
      You too take care ya. I hope the changes will be smooth flowing for you. Also thank you for recommending coconut oil for Chester. I fed Chester and applied the oil at his yeast area. Those area were flaky no more although still blackish.
      It took many many years for me to be okay with my first dog. Chester was my second dog. I bet it will take much much longer. But yes time will heal.

  • Reply Tammy October 16, 2015 at 2:49 am


    I saw your note that Chester had passed. Thank you for letting me know. I liked him very much, funny because we never met.

    I have tears at your story. The details of what you and he went through. I understand the helplessness and frustrations with the doctors during his short illness and the grief at his passing.

    When my Sadie died, she was home here with us. We were getting ready to take her to the vet to be put out of her misery and the misery to come due to cancer.

    She laid in the hall looking as if she was sleeping. I played music, lit a candle, pet her and talked to her. I believe a transition takes place when a body dies but I do not know what our spirits change into.

    I wanted to have her cremated too. My husband wanted to bury her in our back yard; and that is what we did. We wrapped her in a nice clean sheet and put her in a deep grave. I have a large rock to mark it.

    It was two years in April and it has gotten much easier to think about her and smile. But oh, it hurts so much to lose them. Some believe we will be with them when we die. I think that would be wonderful.

    My sister who loves dogs says that when she lost one she went right out and got another and that lessened her grief. Perhaps, but there will only be one Chester. He will be in your heart forever. Amy, you gave him a lovely life and lots of love.

    With affection,

    • Reply Che-Cheh October 16, 2015 at 6:25 pm

      Hi Tammy, I read your comment with tears in my eyes. We got to know each other through Flickr via Sadie and Chester… our love and joy.
      I think having Chester cremated and his ashes in the sea helped me tremendously in letting ago. I no longer sobs like a crazy woman (except right now replying to you). I still miss him though. Some time I look at those spots in the house where he usually hanged out and it feels like he’s just step away and will be back in no time. Deep down, I know I’m just foolishly tricking myself.
      Before Chester’s passing, I have tried looking for a new golden because I wanted Chester to have a new friend and also to lessen the pain when the day come but had no luck in finding one.
      As much as I wanted to meet and be reunited with my dogs again when I die, it would be better for them to be reborn into good human beings. It’s a Chinese/Buddhist belief.
      Thank you for telling me your story of Sadie and for your kind words.

  • Reply keeyit October 18, 2015 at 1:29 pm

    I am sorry about the lost of Chester.
    I always miss Chester.

    Take care, che-cheh…

  • Reply Togo Tagar & Gamby October 29, 2015 at 4:04 pm

    We’re very sad to read this. Hugs to you.
    He’s been greatly loved and loved back greatly in return.

    • Reply Che-Cheh October 29, 2015 at 7:48 pm

      Thank you Togo, Tagar, Gamby and human. *Hugs*

  • Reply Sarah May 10, 2019 at 3:29 am

    Hello! I just came across your story and find it to be very similar to my pup. His name was Solo has had heart failure due to a malformed/scarred valve putting extra stress on the Chords that open/close the valve. We were able to manage his heart failure for about 18 months. As you explain his breathing patterns, gum color, and state after passing… Is EXACTLY as ours ended. Solo was at a special animal cardiologist where he passed. His chords had given out/torn, and his valve was no longer able to help the blood flow as it should. This was the natural progression of heart failure. nothing we as pet parents could do, besides give them love and happiness.

    I hate to bring up this thread from so many years back, i just think i, myself, would want to know what happened. Of course i do not know heart failure is what took your pup from you – it just sounds exactly like what took my dear Solo away.

    I hope this finds you well and provides some additional info.

    • Reply Che-Cheh May 10, 2019 at 9:44 am

      Hi Sarah, thank you so much for sharing Solo’s story. I knew I will have question marks for a long time when I denied Chester an autopsy. I still do to this day. However, I’m at peace with my decision. The whole event in itself has taught me so much and made me stronger than before. It’s the last gift from my dog. ❤️

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