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The triple turbo mode I experienced in December 2022 charged into 2023 and never stopped. In fact, it went on a quintuple mode throughout the year until nearly the end of 2023.

In terms of emotional well-being, it was a dark year. This year, I cried the most times (not including when I was a baby la) and, then there were countless times when I wanted to cry but just couldn’t no matter how hard I tried. Because of my conflict(s), my teeth health is really goners. In other words, I embodied bad dental health due to conflicts according to GHK and modern diets as discovered by Dr Weston A Price.

On the other hand, digestive issues are a really rare occurrence this year and so is panic attack. On the physical health front, I’m stronger. I think it’s all thanks to the animal fats that I’m putting in my body. Imagined what it would be like if I’m only consuming 5% of processed food (I don’t want to eliminate all because what’s life?).

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My 2022 began slowly like 2021 but starts moving fast after the first quarter and when it reached December? It went on triple turbo mode!!! 🚀🚀🚀

I wasn’t really living my 2022. Every day was following a fixed schedule in order to escape the traumas (yeah, it came back). It was and still is traumatizing to live with that toxic morsel. You know this toxic morsel purposely taunts you every day and you try hard to be okay with it but sometimes you fall and feel trapped. And this year, I fell really hard. Very very hard. You can’t do anything about it except hide in a room, get outta there forever or choose death. Or curse a lot. I cursed that moronic toxic morsel GTH many times. I know it’s bad of me but it’s just too unbearable not to release the stresses.

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My 2021 was going by slowly at first but by the second half, it zoomed past in the blink of an eye. What?

2021 saw the continuation of the GREAT FEAR of 2020. Let’s just say that I sometimes feel like shaking one’s shoulders back and forth, back and forth while shouting “WAKE UP! WAKE UP!”. Not anymore though for I learned that it’s not my job to wake others up. It’s an inside job. I’m very glad to be living in this time and witness the greatest waking up of the human race yet. To wake up is not simply by the snap of the fingers, but it takes many dark nights and the peeling off of the many layers (programmings) that we took on through our lives.

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Woah what a year! Instead of fear, I hope everyone is vibrating in higher consciousness and emanating love. For love ❤️ is the opposite of fear. I think 2020 is quite a good year for me. Time moves in a smooth manner as in it didn’t feel too fast or too slow. Ngam-ngam!

In March, Malaysia went into lockdown together with some countries due to a contagious virus. Fast forward 9 months later, we are still restricted but with looser & ever-changing SOPs. Like everyone else, I was worried and afraid but only initially. My fear lasted for about 2-3 weeks. Once I woke up to the truth, everything changes. I tried helping by sharing on social media. Many must have thought this girl is nuts. Don’t care, I still share. You see, once you see it, you can’t unsee it and you want everyone else to see it too!

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Wah, can’t believe I’m a week late blogging about my 2019. Truth to be told, I fell ill a day after Christmas and never felt like my healthy grounded self even until today. There are lingering cough, sore throat, mouth ulcers and stomach discomfort, all which I know are detox symptoms.

Anyway, here’re how my 2019 fare…

This year flew by slowly. The slowest I’ve ever felt in recent decades. It was quite a good year.

I continued where I left off at 2018 in 2019. I dug into my inner world, find out how I operate from the programmings which I downloaded unconsciously (there were lots of fear-based living & thinking), learn to talk to my inner child, learn to listen to my gut/intuition (I’ve got it right quite a few times! It’s usually the first thought that comes up, very positive and tell you straight. If it’s fear-based, then it’s the ego), learn to listen to my body, learn about boundary and implement it, learn to think positively and practice gratefulness.

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