My 2022 began slowly like 2021 but starts moving fast after the first quarter and when it reached December? It went on triple turbo mode!!! 🚀🚀🚀
I wasn’t really living my 2022. Every day was following a fixed schedule in order to escape the traumas (yeah, it came back). It was and still is traumatizing to live with that toxic morsel. You know this toxic morsel purposely taunts you every day and you try hard to be okay with it but sometimes you fall and feel trapped. And this year, I fell really hard. Very very hard. You can’t do anything about it except hide in a room, get outta there forever or choose death. Or curse a lot. I cursed that moronic toxic morsel GTH many times. I know it’s bad of me but it’s just too unbearable not to release the stresses.
My 2021 was going by slowly at first but by the second half, it zoomed past in the blink of an eye. What?
2021 saw the continuation of the GREAT FEAR of 2020. Let’s just say that I sometimes feel like shaking one’s shoulders back and forth, back and forth while shouting “WAKE UP! WAKE UP!”. Not anymore though for I learned that it’s not my job to wake others up. It’s an inside job. I’m very glad to be living in this time and witness the greatest waking up of the human race yet. To wake up is not simply by the snap of the fingers, but it takes many dark nights and the peeling off of the many layers (programmings) that we took on through our lives.
Sorry for the long silence. I didn’t fall out of love with blogging. But because I run out of ideas on what to write. 😛 Anyway, I’m back!
I was tweeting about cutting my own hair today and suddenly got the lightbulb 💡 moment. Why not talk more about it on the blog?
So, what got me into cutting my own hair? I used to have very rough and frizzy hair. No matter what style the hairdressers styled on me, my hair always turns out ugly. I’d even one hairdresser condemning my hair because of the rough and frizzy hair (of course, I never went back). Since it’s always the same case of ugliness, I suddenly got tempted to cut my own hair. Not because I think I can cut better (far from it) but because it’ll still turn out the same ugly and the bonuses are I’ll gain experience and save $$.
Woah what a year! Instead of fear, I hope everyone is vibrating in higher consciousness and emanating love. For love ❤️ is the opposite of fear. I think 2020 is quite a good year for me. Time moves in a smooth manner as in it didn’t feel too fast or too slow. Ngam-ngam!
In March, Malaysia went into lockdown together with some countries due to a contagious virus. Fast forward 9 months later, we are still restricted but with looser & ever-changing SOPs. Like everyone else, I was worried and afraid but only initially. My fear lasted for about 2-3 weeks. Once I woke up to the truth, everything changes. I tried helping by sharing on social media. Many must have thought this girl is nuts. Don’t care, I still share. You see, once you see it, you can’t unsee it and you want everyone else to see it too!
My beloved grandma, the woman who raised me during the early parts of my life, the woman who taught me precious & priceless life lessons, the woman who guided me to cook, sew & garden and the woman who I loved ❤️❤️❤️ tremendously from the bottom of my heart had passed away a week plus ago. She was over 90 years of age and is survived by her children, grandchildren, great-grandchildren, siblings, nieces and nephews and more.
Taken on 20th September 2009. Nearly 11 years ago.